Why

Its getting close to my father in laws 1st year anniversary.....and the rememberance of him, the missing, starts to get stronger and stronger as the anniversary approaches.

human beings seem to be built to forget - to keep ourselves sane. But during anniversaries - all the old emotions all the old feelings the sadness at death at losing someone come pouring back in.

And you probably wonder - why so emo - its just father in-law. But truth be told Daddy was the kindest, most loving man i have ever met. He was the ultimate father. Middle class with 9 kids, provided for his whole family, his kids, was a pillar of his society, his neighbourhood...Daddy i will always remember him as the guy who used to make tea for the postman, the garbage collectors everyone...

And this leads me to the question - why do people have to die? Whats the point of making all these contacts, creating a family, creating a community, getting so attached to everything and making people so attached to you and then to just die...I dont understand it. I miss you Daddy...I miss the cheeky smile...I miss the wise sayings (Daddy was like a quote a day)...I miss being told to go to church...I miss your surprise visits...I miss the optimism and the joy with which you embraced life.