Away

Away again. 4 months into being a mom and im away again. i wonder does my little boy even know i am away. and if he does, am i a bad mother?honestly i hope he misses me as much as i miss him. The only way i deal with this is to imagine that the whole week, is just one long work day, and soon its going to be over!!!! In Hong Kong now, just in from Shanghai this morning, and will be back to KL tomorrow. Need to be up and at the airport in 5hours. All this i did since tuesday this week. What a life....and everytime i hear people say they love to travel, they want a job which allows them to travel, i roll my eyes, and think .."if only you knew"..

Travelling for business equals hours in airports, hours in taxis and limos getting to and from airports, spending time in the fanciest of hotel rooms, which you would never be able to afford if you were on a holiday with family, time with people who are sometimes the most boring people in the world whom you have to watch every single word you say...cuz businessmen are worse than nenek tua...every single word you say will be repeated over and over again with every1 else they meet.

The only thing that keeps me going is knowing that at the end of the week, i will be back with my boo boo's. Michael has been doing a great job with our boy. Rushing home from work cause i dont like nick to spend too much time with the maid. Fought with his boss in fact to go home and spend some time with our boy after work and his boss said something that made me think, we really need to get out of this raT race.

his boss told him (after he said at 8pm that he wanted to go back to spend time with his son) that "work is more important than family and that to succeed we need to make sacrifices". That's the reason why life in Asia sucks. Not the bad service, not the politics, not the conveniences...its the mentality. Work work work till you die..thats what every1 does.

Work is done out of necessity. Sometimes out of passion and very few people are that lucky. Family is what keeps you going. We do all this to keep our families comfortable, to sustain our dreams, to offer all there is to offer to our future, and we should write this down somewhere so that its never forgotten.

Anyone who happens across this blog, never sacrifice on love. Its not worth it.